Month: March 2024

Abandonment Wound

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Please let me see your abandonment wound

How far does it go, way back to the womb

Have you been tossed around like a Raggedy Ann

And have you ever found the the full strength to stand

Or does it always feel like you fall short at the line

When you go to seek, do you struggle to find

The next step in life, like its path is blank

Finding it hard to tell the difference between Adam and Frank

It all goes back to the opinions on-hand

Everyone seems to have devised their own plan

To my life’s next steps, it seems to be a lot

I love these people, so why do I feel distraught

Can I release this nagging and constant noise

Can I give the existing darkness its voice

And if I do, what will it say

Will it ask me to go or to stay

Can I let them be, the dark and the light

Or will I fall farther into feelings of contrite

Will I dig into my depths for the secret answer

Will I remember that darkness can also be a dancer

The shadow in life, its a part of the walk

But make sure that you watch your mouth when you talk

Especially when people show up to help

Just ignore when their heavy hands leave welts

It’s not personal, it’s just that they can see your pain

And they want you to experience all of life’s gains

Not all will speak your language, and that’s okay

Just watch for the ones who are CONSISTENT and STAY

Ignore ALL of the ones who make fun of you

The ones who think trauma-triggering is cute

Don’t be apologetic when your insides are screaming

Be extra careful when you start to think of teaming-

Up with folks who have “your” best interest at heart

Who draw the line down and point with certainty at Start

Only you can know, but please keep yourself open

The Light creeps in right where you think you are broken

Memory

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What is your memory? And how does it work?

Does its path have twists, and turns, and quirks?

Does it seem really sharp, then get really dull?

Does it matter how much of your storage tank is full?

Stay keen on all of these things and what they mean

Remember, things aren’t always as they first seem

Stay true to your Self, you know who you are

You DID A LOT OF WORK to make it this far

Others didn’t see it because, well, they weren’t there

So lots of people may poke, and prod, and stare

They’ll wear on your soul to make you feel not enough

They’ll torture you all whilst saying, “GET TOUGH!”

When I think about care, I have to get really aware

I have to put myself in the position to bear

The brunt of the hard when others want to discard

Our nature which is full of paint, fun, and art

The hard is destruction, it takes things away

It takes things a long time after that to be okay

So this is why we have to try hard to listen on the front

Others do it, so don’t be afraid to be blunt

Use your voice, speak your Truth, it remains the way

You can chill, run, go, or stay

The Choice is up to you, but please don’t forget

If you hit a bump, a crack, or make a dent

Please find a way to make it okay

You know deep down that this is the Way

Pausing to Think

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The Truth is, I had to learn the hard way, that I have to pause to think

Got too many opinions on-board right now, I can’t wait to talk to my shrink

People messing with my stuff makes it harder for me to tell

Does this one want the best for me? Does this one wish me well?

My inner guide can get off base when it comes to certain understandings

Other folks seem to get it already, I’ve watched their flight paths ‘n’ landings

My Higher Self, she’s inside, she knows that it’s really up to “Me”

God knows when it’s that time, He decides when it’s time for each of us to See

You may not think you’re ripe, you make not think you’re steady

You may question all the things in life that point to: “Bitch, you are ready”

So align your Self, stand-up, and put back on your crown

Don’t just waste your time when you know you need to run around

Keep your focus on your gifts, and please straighten out your thoughts

So you can tell what comes from within and identify what is naught

Imag(e)-i-Nation

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Imagination station, do you ever get caught up in contemplation

How deeply do you feel all your suppressed indignation

Does it sit right there on the surface, so that all can clearly see

Or does it hide deep in your depths, do you run when you think about “Me”

When you use your imagination, please, tell me what comes up

Does it happen very slowly, or does it seem fast and abrupt

Do you see the things as inside, or do they seem without

Do they leave you feeling confident or unsure and chock-full of doubt

Do the images remind you of the way things used to be

Or do they come from the future, are you using your mind to See?

And besides any images that arise, what about associated feelings

Do you just sit and observe the damn things or do you get on to reeling

And while we’re talking about feelings, well, what in the heck are those

Are they like the things we put on every day, kind of like we wear our clothes

To me they’re kind of like energy, like a stirring of something inside

The strange thing about these feelings is they can make us want to run ’n’ hide

But the cool thing about energy and feelings, remember, to me they’re kind of the same

Is that sometimes we can really help ourselves out just by giving that shit a name

Now this can be really hard, especially if we’re feeling overwhelmed

It might seem like the sea of life is rocking, forcing us to abandon our helm

But just because it gets really rocky doesn’t mean we don’t have what it takes

It just means that we’ll have to do the damn thing while it all wiggles and shakes

So use your head wisely, take your time, don’t do anything before you’re ready

Just keep in mind that you don’t have to wait until everything becomes extra steady