Have you ever had a feeling in life like you were all al-one
Like you were the only one taking up space in your own home
Have you wondered if others have ever had a chance to discover
The feeling of not needing to compare their God-given self to an-other
We didn’t know His plans when He put the blueprint together
We just know that His Love will last b.ond and for-ever
If you never asked for my side or my story
Your opinion will inevitably and ultimately bore me
‘Cause it’s really all based on your biased conclusions
Your small, little world is full of you-delusions,
Preconceived notions and conditioned beliefs;
Skewed, traditional, and Southern motifs
If you really wanted to know me you would’ve made the time
You would’ve put fort the effort to know what is mine
You would’ve asked and listened, getting out of yourself
But you never did try to learn what I felt
So while I love you and care, this seems to be the end
The only way to me is if you make yourself bend
In a direction that you don’t tend to typically go-
It’s a different path than the only one that you’ve known
It takes a cracking open, especially of the mind
It’s scary and unknown, you’re unsure what you’ll find
But the paradox is that this brings a lot of freedom
When you break free from the confinement of your everyday “me-dom”
I hope you will decide to take that daring step
To recognize you’re stuck, your soul craves new depth
I’ll be right here praying, hoping you will
Take a step towards me, I’ll forever wait until
You think I don’t know? You’re wrong.
I can sense you’ve taken advantage of my song.
It’s a gift. Not meant to create rifts.
Thank you for monitoring while my soul floats adrift, in this game of life.
It’s a sea.
Choose to believe, each other.
Do the right thing, use your True intentions;
Be specific when deciding what kinds of things you’d like to mention.
Do you align, and do all of your parts seem to be in order?
Have you taken a look around in your personal, individual quarters-
Before you started dipping all of your hands in others’ arenas?
When you create, in your mind, do you also see hyenas?
Please reconsider, please take a look at your own dial,
Consider how you’ll act when and if presented in a court of trial.
Listen up my dear, it’s okay to be known
It’s actually a really big sign that you’ve truly grown
Accepting all the different parts of your wonder-ful self
Learning how to be responsible for your own personal health
It may not be very easy, but it sure beats the alternative
Your head will screw on straight and you’ll be able to see whose turn it is
Because it isn’t always yours, growing up means at times being self-less
It means it all comes together and finally life feels a little less reckless
You deserve to stand up tall, and give yourself a pat on the back
You went right on through it, you stayed on your right track
And now you’ll get to see some of the fruits of your difficult labor
You’ve learned that your rock hard place exists with your personal Savior
It’s such a beautiful walk, one we would never want to miss
Now this life will not pass you by without getting to experience bliss
I’m finding it hard to get up off the ground
You’d wonder why I stay lost to get found
Too many things going on in my mind
Covering my eyes to declare that I’m blind
What will make you want to take that crucial turn
To put out the icicles that continue to burn
No sense is made in this place where you are
You’ll look very close but appear very far
It’s an endless glass from which you drink all your thoughts
Don’t be deduced by it being labeled store-bought
Let go of your pride, it’s a thorn in your side
Until then it’s by It that you will have to abide
Get cozy in your sludge and the icky-yucky mess
Why do we keep on having to digress
What is this anger that won’t move on through
I want to slough on spirituality, smoke a joint and subdue
Even when my mind’s off, I don’t feel very good
Wishing that I won’t all whilst wishing that I could
I’ll do myself a favor and admit it’s understood
That there’s powerlessness underneath this old and painted hood
I saw you say goodbye
Didn’t even express a sigh
Maybe you were thinking
Of keeping on with drinking
I know it’s been really big
Hard not to take another swig
I’ve sat long enough in that chair
It’s taken a lot for me to share
I used to get really sick
Thinking about facing it
But I’ve gotten tired of the story
Its repetition has started to bore me
I want to see in living color
The feelings aren’t “above her”
Gotta hunker down in the day
Can’t worry about what you say
I wish you all the very best
I hope I passed your test
Please take care of you
Keep on saying what is True
Even if God had said, “just you wait and you will see,”
There’s still no freaking way that I would have ever believed
That despite all of the pain, I’d find myself in this place
With these beautiful people, in this wonderful space
God says, “I had to bend you, but see, you didn’t break,
All the things you thought you wanted, I simply had to take
To give you all the things that I knew your spirit craved
It’s your spirit that concerned me, it’s your spirit that I saved
You see you have to grow, you have to spread your wings
Although you may not realize it, I give you what you need
But please do not forget, you have to do your part
I’ll get your engine running but Dear you must cruise past Start
There may be a few exceptions when your energy is low
I’ll kick things into gear when it’s clear you need a tow
I’ll give you all the signals and the signs that will say,
‘Don’t travel down that road, please go the other way’
It may not be a short cut, it may be a windy path
You may go through arid deserts before you see the plushy grass
Please listen to your heart and keep your nervous system steady
Because with every stretch of road I really need you to be ready
To take a sharp turn here, to avoid the potholes there
And when the weather’s bad you really have to steer with care
And oh you’ll have some fellow travelers on your journey up ahead
You may want to go alone but I made other plans instead
You’ll get a few who help, who may even lighten your load
You’ll get others struggling, with them you’ll be bestowed-
The gift of being of service, of helping another out
And although it may be hard at times, please don’t ever doubt
The journey that you’re on and the lessons that you’ll learn
It’s all so that your soul can grow, even when it burns
I’m so proud of what you’ve done, so proud of where you are
Take a look in the rear view mirror to see you’ve journeyed far”
Everyday Awakenings 