You think I don’t know? You’re wrong.
I can sense you’ve taken advantage of my song.
It’s a gift. Not meant to create rifts.
Thank you for monitoring while my soul floats adrift, in this game of life.
It’s a sea.
Choose to believe, each other.
Do the right thing, use your True intentions;
Be specific when deciding what kinds of things you’d like to mention.
Do you align, and do all of your parts seem to be in order?
Have you taken a look around in your personal, individual quarters-
Before you started dipping all of your hands in others’ arenas?
When you create, in your mind, do you also see hyenas?
Please reconsider, please take a look at your own dial,
Consider how you’ll act when and if presented in a court of trial.
Listen up my dear, it’s okay to be known
It’s actually a really big sign that you’ve truly grown
Accepting all the different parts of your wonder-ful self
Learning how to be responsible for your own personal health
It may not be very easy, but it sure beats the alternative
Your head will screw on straight and you’ll be able to see whose turn it is
Because it isn’t always yours, growing up means at times being self-less
It means it all comes together and finally life feels a little less reckless
You deserve to stand up tall, and give yourself a pat on the back
You went right on through it, you stayed on your right track
And now you’ll get to see some of the fruits of your difficult labor
You’ve learned that your rock hard place exists with your personal Savior
It’s such a beautiful walk, one we would never want to miss
Now this life will not pass you by without getting to experience bliss
Even if God had said, “just you wait and you will see,”
There’s still no freaking way that I would have ever believed
That despite all of the pain, I’d find myself in this place
With these beautiful people, in this wonderful space
God says, “I had to bend you, but see, you didn’t break,
All the things you thought you wanted, I simply had to take
To give you all the things that I knew your spirit craved
It’s your spirit that concerned me, it’s your spirit that I saved
You see you have to grow, you have to spread your wings
Although you may not realize it, I give you what you need
But please do not forget, you have to do your part
I’ll get your engine running but Dear you must cruise past Start
There may be a few exceptions when your energy is low
I’ll kick things into gear when it’s clear you need a tow
I’ll give you all the signals and the signs that will say,
‘Don’t travel down that road, please go the other way’
It may not be a short cut, it may be a windy path
You may go through arid deserts before you see the plushy grass
Please listen to your heart and keep your nervous system steady
Because with every stretch of road I really need you to be ready
To take a sharp turn here, to avoid the potholes there
And when the weather’s bad you really have to steer with care
And oh you’ll have some fellow travelers on your journey up ahead
You may want to go alone but I made other plans instead
You’ll get a few who help, who may even lighten your load
You’ll get others struggling, with them you’ll be bestowed-
The gift of being of service, of helping another out
And although it may be hard at times, please don’t ever doubt
The journey that you’re on and the lessons that you’ll learn
It’s all so that your soul can grow, even when it burns
I’m so proud of what you’ve done, so proud of where you are
Take a look in the rear view mirror to see you’ve journeyed far”
We need to spend some time talking about your healthy self
Pick up that version, take it down off the shelf
Crack it on open, please, and let’s take a closer look
Let’s peruse its substance like we’re reading a book
How did it start, with some outside motivation
Did you have to sit through an uncomfortable ablation
Is that what it took to kick some things into gear
Did someone start your engine, forcing you to steer
We need you to focus on your health for your Self
Without life, you won’t be able to accumulate any wealth
Focus on your needs, spirit, mind, and body
Be weary of showing up when you’re feeling extra haughty
Keep your poise and balance, don’t let others pull you away
You may need to find a place to stay ‘til you’re okay
And yes your demands may vary from others in your group
It’s okay if they don’t wanna sit around and hang out in your coop
The goal is to learn how to meet all of your own needs
To take care of the things on which your mind, body, and spirit feed
You’re getting there slowly, more things are making sense
You’re building something now with your hands, like a fence
One piece at a time, it won’t happen overnight
You’ll learn patience, and sitting, you might acquire real sight
Listen closely to me, my dear, you are a child of God
And no one on this earth should be able to convince you that you are not
And if they actually try to, please just turn your head
They may not be able to tell but their insides may be a bit dead
Not in the literal sense, it’s more about a lack of deep feeling
Where they can’t tell it’s God’s joy and love that they’re actually stealing
Because their light may be dim, and they can’t see all of the effects
Of their meddling behaviors and the things that get caught up in their nets
But those things they’ll have to deal with, it definitely is not your job
To tell folks when they’re on base or even when they truly are not
Remember that GOD gives out gifts, He is the ultimate decider
He decides when to make you turn from a lover into a “fighter”-
for all of the greater good, you don’t need to be understood
Let others do the work of cleaning underneath their own hoods
The rain came today
it asked if it could stay
Most would send it away
but I was curious what it would say
“I came to wash away
and to let the children play”
And much to my dismay
the rain would have its way
It’s God’s divine creation
from the master command station
Don’t fall for an abbreviation
He will notice your hesitation
Don’t play with divination
it’s not in the presentation
You’ll survive your indignation
pay attention to representation
Thank you for saying what’s real
it makes it harder for others to steal
The passion in your zeal
it can make you seem surreal
But that’s not all of the appeal
you keep two eyes on your rear
You shouldn’t have to watch for deer,
though with time you’ve learned to steer
Thank you for being you
but work on the need to subdue
There’s a lightness in your hue
and some old stuff to un-do
But if I really know you
I know that you’ll get through
There’s a strength in your truth
It started there in your youth
This is how it happens, Dear, just little by little
Because God knows you truly, deeply and all the places you’re still brittle
But He also knows your strengths, so don’t think that He doesn’t care
When around a certain issue He flings you up into the air
Maybe that’s the test you’re given, to see if you can fly
Or if on your way tumbling down you simply wave at passers by
This is the price we pay for being one of His beloved
Some days we rise ‘n’ shine and other days we may feel rugged
But no matter what happens, I beg you, please do not forget
To take your sense of humor along, to bring your love and wit
‘Cause these subjects are really heavy, and not only just for you
Think about all the others – you know, your family and your crew
We’re all fighting our battles inside in one way or another
And isn’t it cool that to ease our load we can (at times) lean on each other
You’re becoming aware of just how much others have pulled some of your weight
Don’t over-criticize yourself quite yet, it’s had to do with your lowly state
You’ve come to learn there are 3 different ways that the enemy can creep-in
Generational curses, harm done to you, and your own individual sin
The best news about all of this is that everything is getting clearer
You’ve unloaded a lot, you’ve done the work, you can finally look in the mirror !
You’re getting close to having the strength to help OTHERS carry THEIR loads
And on occasion you’ll be given the chance to listen and forebode
Pay attention to all of the messages that you’ve been gifted to receive
Keep your focus on your goals and continue to build strength in what you believe
What do you say when you can’t find the words
When their selection might determine what ends up being heard
Sometimes I have thoughts, and other times I’m blank
And sometimes it gets jumbled all together if I’m frank
As I started coming into a deeper awareness
I started thinking about things, like duality and fairness…
Or what makes me me, and what makes you you…
When you’re not sure about life, what do you do
Do you stay where you are and ask lots of questions
When life drags you around, do you seek out the lessons
Do you pick yourself up at every which turn
From all of your experiences, do you try to learn
Because life will give you moments that were made just for you
Opportunities and trials for you to work through
Don’t see them all as just big bumps in the road
Get out your tools and start trying to de-code
You’ll know that you were meant to be where you are
Because God put you underneath that sky and those stars!
And if you get scared, just know that it will eventually get better
Pray, go easy, and don’t apply too much pressure
But also know when to give yourself timeout
Watch for any stirrings of confusion or doubt
Don’t hurt the people who are extra sensitive and sweet
The ones who you think are super real and pretty neat
The people who came into your life solely to enhance
Don’t abuse, confuse, or fall into a trance
Be honest with yourself and always wear your authenticity
If things get overwhelming shift to genuine simplicity
Keep your intentions pure and if you find there’s been an intrusion
Love yourself hard, purge the feelings, it might be in seclusion
See, energies will creep in so you have to pay close attention
It’s an art to work it down, it’s a WAR OF ATTRITION
Thank you for your part, it sure as shit hasn’t been easy
But with all of this practice, it’ll become easy-breezy
We call this, “conditioning,” you should be very familiar
But this time, darling, you’ve been given the chance to reconfigure
Your innards, your wiring, and what is written in your heart
What you didn’t know when it was being mauled and torn apart
Was that you would be the one who gets to put it back together
And with the team that you picked, life will just keep getting better and fucking better!!
I spent most of my life having faith in all of them
Most of them I considered trusted family or friends
Were their intentions good, did they have a firm grasp
Of the ideas they projected upon which I clasped
Or did I get confused when others tried to impress
Their ideas onto me if their minds were hard-set
Well now I’ve arrived at the part where I begin
I’ll no longer allow my head to fall or to spin
I can listen to their words but still make up my mind
About who I am, it’s not by them I’m defined
So as I keep going, I will do what I need
I’ll keep the ones close who’ll help me succeed
In understanding my Self, my morals and values
Please present your steady attention, shall you?
I believe that everything here happens for a reason
That people are there for a lifetime, a reason, or a season
That when we feel doubt, we need to amp up our faith
And remember that in His eyes we’re not a disgrace
There may be some heavy things that come up for air
They need lots of love, we can’t fall into despair
We trust that if we’re suffering we must’ve been gifted
With this task of healing, we’ve never really drifted
Far from the places that we must stand tall
Always ready for a serve, a spike, and a fall
For all of us here these paths have been chosen
And any pot in which we’re planted we must grow in
It could be weeks or years, maybe even decades
We can survive mental health, break-ups, and plagues
The trick is to believe that anything is possible
Yes we could focus instead on the probable
But life is guaranteed to throw you some curves
You’ll try to jump, to dodge and then swerve
But most of the big stuff, it was written in the stars
So no matter where you go be sure to stand for who You Are
No one can save you, you have to save your self
You have to fix your life, your perspectives, your health
If you don’t, unfortunately, neither can “they”
No matter who comes, who goes, or who stays
See this is adulthood… it can really be hard
You’ll wade through your karma, your past, its shards
You’ll blame other people, then look in the mirror
Your sight, if you work at it, will keep getting clearer
You’ll see them and they, she and then he
Then one day you’ll wake up and be shocked to see “me”
Now this is the part where you’ll want to give up
Because some of your decisions, when examined, they’re rough
You’ve been selfish and self-centered, you’ve blamed and shamed
You’ve labeled others’ demons, you’ve called them names
This started in childhood, when the chaos was rampant
You didn’t know when it was coming ‘cause you didn’t plan it
When the big people flailed, you had to learn to tell
Will this end in glory, or will I wind up in hell
Do I need to play it soft, sweet, and kind
Or do I need to “put up my dukes” and defend from a bind
But I’ll tell you something sweet, much sweeter than this
Life will give you good stuff you won’t want to miss
You’ll find love and friends, adopted sibs and parents
You’ll go on trips, tours…fulfill God-given errands
And yours are for you, so please don’t compare
We’re all of God’s children, special and rare
Stay present for your life, its gifts and struggles
When a fight comes up, show ‘em your knuckles
But when it gives you beauty, try to just rest
You can be totally relaxed and still be your best
As a matter of fact, God wants you to know
You’ve gotta take a break from lugging baggage in-tow
Thank you for deciding to try to be responsible
Just wait until you see what it can all make possible
I’m sorry that I don’t know how to let go
It’s like the answers are in front of me, but I don’t want to know
It’s easier to pretend that something is when it isn’t
Wipe your eyes child, I thought you had 20/20 vision ?
….See, YOU(R) awareness is attached to YOU(R) experience…
And yes, about it, you tend to be very serious
But you have to remind yourself where YOU-ARE
And you can’t forget, others from afar
It takes consideration, and yes this is new
And you’ll have to work at lessening the amount you subdue
Your feelings and experiences, they’re all part of it
And we already know, “fine, [you’ll] face but not love it” 🙄
You see, life is all about walking the walk
If at any point, your mouth is going to open to talk
Don’t be about all of the smoke and mirrors
Step into your experiences and look a bit clearer
Every place you find yourself, that’s where you are
And you know your God, so don’t ever think you are far
From the intended location of your current presence
Think in symbols, and the the fear will start to lessen
Thank God for each day that you have on this earth
Even when it feels like you’re dying (often and) slowly by bursts 🔥
Wade through the muck, please do what you need
This honest, hard work’s very necessary to succeed
If you don’t unravel your personal confliction
It’ll be hard to overcome your powerful addiction
See you went from repress, to suppress, to escape
Because you discovered it’s easier to manipulate the physical along the way
To wrestle the mind can really be draining
Especially if at work you spend a lot of time straining
Balance is a thing upon which the universe relies
Be friends with your mind, it’s nothing to despise
It works hard and fast, to take care of you
Looking for “reasons” so that it can subdue
These feelings in your body that want to come out
It’s yearning for you to allow it to scream and to shout
Don’t trap them inside, that game’s getting old
Opportunities are arising but your plate’s getting cold
Feed yourself from the deep pit of your stomach
Its outside’s not flat, but learn how to love it
Parent your child, who needs you to be
As honest as you never even thought you could be
Trust your guides, yourself, and your learned knowledge
Hurry up and get through the necessary college
Your calling is waiting for you to catch up
And please remind yourself daily, you’re enough
It’s the end of the decade, and look where you are
I bet you didn’t think you’d make it this far
In such a short time, I know it felt like ages
But rapid-speed is how quickly you moved through the stages:
Childhood re-lived, you had your rebirth
It was horrifically painful – it felt like the first
You learned to be dependent, a hard one for you
But you kept your faith and found peace in the clues
Next you learned to crawl, and that movement was slow
To prove you don’t always dictate the pace at which you go
Then you learned to walk and you were well on your way
And the choice became whether or not to go or to stay
But once you got the hang of it, you realized it’s all the same
You’re always right there, no matter the place’s name
By this time you’re running and you’ve found a nice pace
Despite the quick movement, you know that life’s not a race
There are things in control that are much greater than you
You’re part of it all but you’re just a bite of the stew
I know it’s strange, the happenings that go on
The symbolic shifts through the dark and the dawn
It’s hard to talk about them because not everyone sees
Even though they may say it, it’s still hard to believe
That the universe is magic by the definition we learned
It exists when life feels soft and when it’s firm
If we can open ours eyes to what’s right in front of us
Everything else that goes on well, we just have to trust
When the skies go gray and the temperature gets hotter
Just keep chopping wood and carrying water
Everyday Awakenings 