You think I don’t know? You’re wrong.
I can sense you’ve taken advantage of my song.
It’s a gift. Not meant to create rifts.
Thank you for monitoring while my soul floats adrift, in this game of life.
It’s a sea.
Choose to believe, each other.
Do the right thing, use your True intentions;
Be specific when deciding what kinds of things you’d like to mention.
Do you align, and do all of your parts seem to be in order?
Have you taken a look around in your personal, individual quarters-
Before you started dipping all of your hands in others’ arenas?
When you create, in your mind, do you also see hyenas?
Please reconsider, please take a look at your own dial,
Consider how you’ll act when and if presented in a court of trial.
We need to spend some time talking about your healthy self
Pick up that version, take it down off the shelf
Crack it on open, please, and let’s take a closer look
Let’s peruse its substance like we’re reading a book
How did it start, with some outside motivation
Did you have to sit through an uncomfortable ablation
Is that what it took to kick some things into gear
Did someone start your engine, forcing you to steer
We need you to focus on your health for your Self
Without life, you won’t be able to accumulate any wealth
Focus on your needs, spirit, mind, and body
Be weary of showing up when you’re feeling extra haughty
Keep your poise and balance, don’t let others pull you away
You may need to find a place to stay ‘til you’re okay
And yes your demands may vary from others in your group
It’s okay if they don’t wanna sit around and hang out in your coop
The goal is to learn how to meet all of your own needs
To take care of the things on which your mind, body, and spirit feed
You’re getting there slowly, more things are making sense
You’re building something now with your hands, like a fence
One piece at a time, it won’t happen overnight
You’ll learn patience, and sitting, you might acquire real sight
Listen closely to me, my dear, you are a child of God
And no one on this earth should be able to convince you that you are not
And if they actually try to, please just turn your head
They may not be able to tell but their insides may be a bit dead
Not in the literal sense, it’s more about a lack of deep feeling
Where they can’t tell it’s God’s joy and love that they’re actually stealing
Because their light may be dim, and they can’t see all of the effects
Of their meddling behaviors and the things that get caught up in their nets
But those things they’ll have to deal with, it definitely is not your job
To tell folks when they’re on base or even when they truly are not
Remember that GOD gives out gifts, He is the ultimate decider
He decides when to make you turn from a lover into a “fighter”-
for all of the greater good, you don’t need to be understood
Let others do the work of cleaning underneath their own hoods
I’m here on my knees, I’ve taken my last step
Will this be it…will I win that big bet
The one that I decided to place on my-self
To be responsible for my own well-being and health
To live in the light, and to walk in my truth
Have I lost what little I have left of my youth
It isn’t easy, or fun, and it won’t be a breeze
It won’t get easier, no matter how much you beg or you plead
Because when it got sewed it in, it was sewed very tight
You asked that it not be undone, even when you think, “but i’m right” !
This is the work, girl, it’s part of the deal
The work began when you decided you were going.to.heal!
You’re funny, and kind, and you’ve got a lot to give
You have a lot of your life left to act.u.ally live
Because you haven’t been living, no matter what you say
We’ve watched you hem and haw, you’ve rocked and you’ve swayed
But you’re getting there (slowly) more things are making sense
You’re more open to the world’s insights and beautiful hints
But you’ve gotta stop the hammering on your sensitive soul
There are some things – well most things – where you’re not in control
You will know what’s best for you, you precious little doll
Bet you didn’t see the way up when you took that big fall
Its view is getting clearer, you can almost see the next step
Encourage yourself, every single chance that you get
Listen up please, we need to talk about avoidance
And don’t even try t’give me that look, ‘cause I know it’s of annoyance
Looking directly at “the stuff” is how it loses its grip
PULL IT UP to your eye-level so that it won’t make you trip
You’ll want to free your pathway from any scattered junk
So when you walk and move around you don’t move with extra funk
Avoidance is a tricky one, ‘cause you know it’s just right there
But you’ll do absolutely whatever it takes to keep from having to share
Why do we do this? What purpose does it serve?
Perhaps we’re afraid to make the assessment we know is well-deserved
Yes, of course that’s it, it’s really very simple
We’re afraid if we get real honest about our pain that it might actually triple !
But we can’t, we must, we have to move along
This crap we’ve stuffed way deep down is drowning out our song
And our song is THE THING that we’re meant to share with the world
God took our voice and who we are and with both in-hand he twirled
Can you even imagine, God dancing just to make you?
Then imagine how He’d feel if you didn’t do what He made you to do…
Well don’t, we won’t, it’s really not an option
And if you wish to go that way I’d say err on the side of caution
Lean into your Self, lean into your Spirit, and please don’t be afraid
Keep moving along your chosen path and one day you’ll “have it made”
Have you ever been in that very strange place
Where someone asks you to please run at their pace
Where you were told how to act and how to behave
Told how to eat your food and which ones not to crave
It’s such a weird space that we occupy here
Where machines are built [this] way and for [so many] years
Some won’t want you original, a threat to their norm
When you say “this is it,” it may stir up a storm
All over another’s idea of how I should speak my truth
Well, you must not’ve heard about the history of ab.use
You see, its roots are responsible for tendering this fire
Fueled by grit, strength, and a depth of desire
To prepare myself enough to guide the ones who come
Like, what if they show up asking me, “what can be done?” !!!!
Because my answers won’t come from that lost inner kid
Who just said what they were told and did what others did
It’ll come from this adult who carefully constructed a foundation
With God, the right tools, and people-filled love stations
The things that charge and guide me when my light starts to dim
When the path turns dark and the window of sight becomes slim
Because when those storms come, I want my house to be ready
I don’t want to flood with fear and then question if it’s steady
I want to stand on tended ground with a confidence within
That will hold firm when the storms come bringing the winds
When the forecast is changing and its predictions are grim
It’ll be the place that we find ourselves after life fills with Him
If there’s one thing that I know, He weathers those storms
He’s got this super duper, invisible, magical platform
That underlies all that we do if we just follow His ways
You’ll be able to see the light even when the skies appear grey
And it won’t be perfect, don’t forget, that’s already been covered
He gave His own life so that we don’t have to suffer !!!
Can you even believe it!?? It actually really does take quite a while
But you’ve made it through in your own, individual, and unique kind of style 😝
How do you get when it hits you in the face
When someone decides they’re gonna try t’put you in your place
With words, a firm look, or by creating some space
Is it hard not to feel like you’ve suddenly been replaced
With an idea, a phrase, or a fresh set of eyes
Is it a view that you will accept or go on to despise
Will you take it in to settle and weigh its future lesson
Or will you let it push you to a state of surprise-yourself aggression
Well don’t dismiss it when you get a really hard shot to your gut
When a blow hits you hard and there’s nothing in it to rebut
Because it may knock you loose from the stand that you’re on
You may get to see, as an adult, the natural instinct to fawn
But challenge yourself and be okay with things moving around
Even if that movement is in the direction of down
From being too high where you can’t see all of the views
A perspective that might actually make you feel lighter and new
So use judgment, take time, think through every step
Because that approach hasn’t failed you, not quite, not yet
It’s important that you learn to sit at every level
Where you’ll feel torn and tattered, confused and disheveled
Because then you’ll get to see, there are different points of view
You can sit with these and those, all are parts of your crew
It’s humanity, you nut, but you’ve known all along
Don’t dismiss the tune, when sung, of someone else’s song
Let me tell you some things about the ones who will and have raised you
They’re not always the ones who’ll constantly sit back and appraise you
They’ll notice when things aren’t quite feeling as if they’re all balanced out
They’ll pick up on your stirring feelings of confusion and doubt
And know that they may not always resc’you, that’s not evidence of true love
You can get that devotion from the Big Guy upstairs ‘n’ those above
Human love is sometimes soft, but it can also feel really hard
You’ll face challenges and ask yourself what you should keep or discard
But don’t forget that your God will never make any mistakes
He adds things to your life, but sometimes he takes
And taking may mean change, so don’t get so overwhelmed
Have Faith in the One who guides you and heads-up your helm
Some things have to die in order for new things to grow
Open your heart and your mind to the circus that’s God’s nature’s show
You can view it with gratitude, or let things pass you by
But your soul knows the way and how high it wants to fly
Your heart will tell you which ones to hold onto or release
But FYI, your Love’ll knock down walls until your body is deceased
Let me tell you about my God, He’s the God of second chances
You thought He turned his back on you but you missed His steady glances
As soon as you walked in, you immediately caught His eye
He never would’ve let you just unnoticeably pass Him by
But it’s not always that easy, He has some expectations
So don’t go ‘round shouting yet with pure joy and elation
There may just be some things that he also wants from you
Did you think you could get by unscathed just by doing what you do
See the God of second chances, is also one of fairness
Right when you think you’re covered-up you’ll recognize your bareness
He sees you when you’re sleeping, he knows when you’re awake
A different type of Santa Claus who knows your special fate
But just because you’re given a map doesn’t depict which way you’ll trek
You may find yourself off the beaten-path and fearing for your neck
Because remember when He made you, it was in His very own image
So you’re not Him, you are your own, with your very own gifts and limits
Please keep these things in mind as you try to find your way
Be sure to use your gifts and discernment when confusion comes into play
But don’t get so overwhelmed that you forget about the start
The One who put you all together, including your big heart
It’s clear that it’s a tricky thing, so please work on being patient
We promise you’ll advance along before you become “ancient”
Just don’t get so caught up on being the one who’s always “right”
You’ll find yourself in one big pickle or in frequent fights
Humility and serenity will be found on your future journey
But it won’t be handed to you, you’re going to have to earn it
So open your eyes and pick your head up, put one foot in front of the other
Pay attention to yourself and when.you.can, your “brothers”
Have you ever heard of a thing out there called keeping the status quo?
Making things appear to all those near that everything’s entire(ly) UNDER-control
Well I’ll tell you now, it’s a bag of dicks ‘n’ tricks, often of the worst kind
Just to stare at the turmoiled state of affairs while exclaiming! 🔥 oh, but I’m blind 😎
One may even consider sacrificing their integrity just to keep from “rocking the boat”
We may do anything it takes to keep everything nice, to keep things in-tact and afloat
We may have to ask, “please hold this wheel, or it might take a big-ass turn”
Driven by all of our fears and all the anxieties that started to swarm and churn
“Hold on tight. We might lose our balance, someone could fall over-board”
So most of the people began grabbing and clinging, a visceral, unique type of hoard
But did anyone pay any attention to the shy little girl that clearly seems to be
A quiet passenger on the boat, but that also appears lost at sea
She’s sitting on the edge, holding on tightly to the spotless and cold railing
She says to the others, weathered in covers, I’d rather have a boat that goes sailing
Because at least on that boat, it’s true to itself, and to the powers that BE
When Mother Nature takes hold, passengers get bold, and finally I experience “me”
Because she’s not just the girl that stands on the world to feel concrete under her feet
She’d rather set sail on an adventure that entails some experiences she defines neat
It may not be popular, it may not be pretty, but at least it won’t end in defeat
She’ll keep sailing along, singing her songs, focusing on her true needs
This is how it happens, Dear, just little by little
Because God knows you truly, deeply and all the places you’re still brittle
But He also knows your strengths, so don’t think that He doesn’t care
When around a certain issue He flings you up into the air
Maybe that’s the test you’re given, to see if you can fly
Or if on your way tumbling down you simply wave at passers by
This is the price we pay for being one of His beloved
Some days we rise ‘n’ shine and other days we may feel rugged
But no matter what happens, I beg you, please do not forget
To take your sense of humor along, to bring your love and wit
‘Cause these subjects are really heavy, and not only just for you
Think about all the others – you know, your family and your crew
We’re all fighting our battles inside in one way or another
And isn’t it cool that to ease our load we can (at times) lean on each other
You’re becoming aware of just how much others have pulled some of your weight
Don’t over-criticize yourself quite yet, it’s had to do with your lowly state
You’ve come to learn there are 3 different ways that the enemy can creep-in
Generational curses, harm done to you, and your own individual sin
The best news about all of this is that everything is getting clearer
You’ve unloaded a lot, you’ve done the work, you can finally look in the mirror !
You’re getting close to having the strength to help OTHERS carry THEIR loads
And on occasion you’ll be given the chance to listen and forebode
Pay attention to all of the messages that you’ve been gifted to receive
Keep your focus on your goals and continue to build strength in what you believe
Everyday Awakenings 